Upside Down, Underwater, & Anew
Or how I can to be a believer in the Saturn Return.
This winter has been the most challenging time in my life. The postpartum year or so was pretty gnarly, but fairly stable compared to what’s gone on over the past three months. My partner Graham and I came thisclose to splitting up (thereby splitting our family up), we lived in a waaay too small house under the thumb of an irrational, mean-hearted landlord, we struggled every day to come up with enough money to make ends meet, and we got into some hurtful and emotional personal drama with some of our best friends.
I felt like I was drowning, kicking my way to the surface, hoping for that break in the fabric of the water where it would give way to air. We searched constantly for a new home, new jobs, we talked and talked our way through our problems and the problems with our friends. But still there was no give. Nothing was shifting, despite my and our efforts.
During my last period I did some (apparently, very strong) “magic” in my own little way with the intention of deeply grounding and strongly centering myself in order to push through the stagnation.













































